I've realized that I'm stuck in a rut.

I think upon taking my oath and receiving naturalization certificate, (and license by then), I will hopefully have enough money to move out to a new city.

I was contemplating on a big but not LA-ish type city, I still love LA but I just need to get away from here for a while.

So for now I will start saving up and cutting back on spending.

Current Mood: crappy

so apparently they were filming an episode of the show in my building downstairs....my boss saw america ferrera downstairs.

Current Mood: bouncy

why celebrate it when the people i wanted to celebrate with bailed. I guess I should listen to that saying , "never make someone a priority, when that person only has keeps you as an option" I guess that can be applied to friendship as well.

eh, I'm allowed to be cranky. its almost my birthday.

Current Mood: apathetic

1) Getting kicked out of the Red Room the night we got back after less than a minute of getting in. (Will give details of this by request). Ended up smelling like booze even before I started drinking.

2) Getting hit on by a guy at Vida Lounge in the same amount of time as Number One.

3) Hugging the toilet for the Night.

4) Waking up very early the next day, showered and dressed by 9 but still managed to miss the Merrill Graduation.

5) Bought a new UCSC hoodie, and presents for family and co-workers.

6) Finally took the picture of the front sign when you enter campus.

7) Made it to the two other Grad ceremonies we had planned on.

8) Went back to the Blue and Rosies on our 2nd night.

9) Didn't make it to 99, (Will probably do this when I go back to San Jose in July).

10) Got back home at exactly midnight.

Road trips are awesome. Some of my other friends are still in Santa Cruz, who I didn't get to see while I was in town, but that just gives me another excuse to go back!

Current Mood: rejuvenated

I'm at the apple store. My macbook won't start-up. This problem started thursday evening. I'm hoping its not a harddrive problem.

And to my right I saw: A helicopter graveyard. Giant helicoopters either charred, crashed, either way, that was where they were left to rust.

I was sitting in the backseat of a minivan. There were two other people with me. The thought that the lane we were driving in seemed to be getting smaller in width, and though the thought of crashing hit me, I was not as all tense.

My dad had made me ride his 70's style bike ( the one where the handle bars are curved and reminded me of a ram's horn. My whole family is there. Mom, dad, brother, his wife, and my two nieces.

We are waiting in some sort of underground parking structure. My mom wanted to buy a car and it just so happened one of my friends, david, had an old saturn to sell. I greeted him and then just let my mom and brother test it out as we watched.

(I wonder what if it meant anything seeing those helicopters. The car thing, well, my mom is actually looking to buy a car, and my friend is looking to sell it. She gonna check it out on friday)

Current Mood: hopeful

So I dreamt that my three year old niece mariah, was set to be in a movie, where she played the character at that age.

then I saw my brother and he had a few tattoos on his chest and his back, and they were all of various comic book super heroes done in all diferent sizes.

then i dreamt i was in a store and it was set up for halloween and this guy that had on a creepy mask ( but ended up having a squid like real face) whos face i kept seeing, but didnt follow me around. After that I sort of flashed back and I was sort of a side kick to that guy in batman- from the "new" well batman beyond cartoons that were around briefly a few years back.

finally i dreamt I was at a restaurant of hosted by some old friends of the family. My mom and dad had gone off and come back with their own food.my mom's friend looked a little pissed that she had brought in outside food.

then i woke up and realized i slept too much today.

REALLY EFFING TIRED (grr! @daylight savings time)

saturday:

lake perris all day: it was hot but good times with old friends.

night time: getting lost in culver city, beer, and hookah. good times.

next weekend is st. patty's day.most likely going to get plastered that night, though I am working friday and that morning.

more $$ = more booze.

as far as my main priorities right now:

signing up for october lsat.

working on my personal statement. (must brush up on writing skills).

getting my license (after what now will be called my monthly dinner with dad, he said he would try to contribute $1000 for a down payment)

Current Mood: drained

So If ANYONE actually reads my post afew back I described a dream where I am about to have intercourse with a man in my room on my bed. Except this time my mom walks in catches us about to do the deed and does nothing, just keeps walking as though it is nothing out of the ordinary. Later When were both dressed, the man I was with proceeds to the kitchen and sits in a discussion with my mom and two other women in this round dinner table.

Even if that last part of the dream was as odd as the first part, it just seemed odd transitioning from one scene to something like that.

what does it mean??

oooh and I'm saving this date. July 21st.Saturday.

So I applied for a job at MALDEF. and today i got a message from them saying they want to have me come in!

I'm not celebrating yet. but still excited they called.

sucks though I'm going to work tomorrow (i'm usually off fridays) and I have hope they call me in the morning or during lunch

Guys.

Current Mood: hungry

New years resolutions:

1. be more assertive.

2. lose weight... (thats more of an ongoing resolution)

Current Mood: cold

Ate Pozole, took a nap and

Danced around the house blasting my music.

Current Mood: hyper

the thought of my mom mentioning she cut off our cellphone service. Thinking about it now, it doesn't sound like a terrible idea.

Right now on average we are paying about a hundred dollars a month on both our plans. At this point she is expecting me to pay all of the bill, but i negotiated down to just my part of it.

With all my other debt, NOT having to pay another 50 dollars on my phone would certaintly be beneficial.

i'm not insane i just want to see how i could get by without a cellphone again. I've owned one since junior year at school (don't know how i talked my parents into that, it was pre-paid plan)

though she hasnt made it final, it wouldnt be that bad, i think.

And at another item of downgrading the cable in my room is not working still. I'm also getting myself convinced that I could to without my own tv in the room.

Current Mood: apathetic

yeah.

I'm one of the biggest dorks you'll ever meet.

I don't want to jinx it, but last night was.......just plain awesome.


*edit* I guess i jinxed it.or he was just stupid.

why else would he have been holding my hand?

Current Mood: sleepy

that i dreamt that ucsc had a football team, or that they were playing down here, or that i was getting the fans going....with face paint and everything...

im attempting to get a completely new lj layout

I keep wondering whether i should keep having my fantasy of a post-undergrad education. My biggest obstacle are my grades. I managed to just get average....guess my heart wasnt into some of the classes but i managed to get by with B's.... and this entry is kind of pointless.

Working at the law office is actually improving. No I didnt get a raise...but i am makin more money.

my boss asked me to fill in yesterday afternoon and also come in tomorrow. So technically I'd be working an extra day. And this is in addition to him mentioning thatd i would be getting more hours next week instead of just filling in.

This is usually the case with me getting into any job/class/writing project. Well duh thats obvious right?. its not any thing new, getting used to your surroundings and actually enjoying what you do. building a routine. For me its actually socializing. I've never been good at it. I've tended to be pretty quiet and lonerish when first meeting people. I don't have that bubbling personality or social butterfly type quality like most people i surround myself with.

And i know this isnt healthy, but ive been working through it. I think I've made improvements in learning about what makes me tick.

Current Mood: amused

i'm so horrible at picking up on guys, even if starting for a conversation. But I think today it went rather smoothly.

So I'm with my friend david(to help him pass his algebra class) and we go to this starbucks near my house and I order first.

Whatever same routine i look down looking for my money, and this is where they actually ask your name, in which case I usually say may because they fuck up my name either way.

well to get to the point, (and I know this is still very obsessive of me to re tell this many times) hah, i hear my full name instead, and silly me i dont realize

this is one of those casual yet out of the blue meetings where theres awkwardness for one other other person then after that everything fixes itself.

Right now I am in the middle of a conversation on aim where I got some stuff out of my chest that has been bugging me all evening.

anyhow, expect another entry about this tomorrow.

Current Mood: aggravated